Big Girl Pants

How It All Changes...

It's amazing how much has changed in the last 4 years.  Let's see...

I was so scared to leave high school and start college.  Terrified beyond belief.  I thought I hated it at school when I started freshman year because I couldn't audition for the shows.  Once I crewed one show I was hooked and knew it would never be the same to go home again.  And it wasn't...

People changed, I lost so many friends from high school...not on purpose...we just drifted apart.  Freshman year flew by.  I got cast in my first show at Arcadia.  It was so exciting.  Then I spent a fun summer home, lifeguarding of course, but enjoying my time with Kim, Lynda, Matt, Steve and the BR kids.  Sophomore year came along.  I didn't get cast 1st semester, but had an amazing time ASMing Buried Child.  Then second semester I was cast in Little Shop which was a big feat for me.  There's so much I hated and loved about that show.  Plus I did Die! Mommy! Die! which was so much fun and I'm dying to do again.  Then I came home and had the most horrific and miserable summer of my life.  Dad had gotten married, I spent all my time crying in my room and finally, by the second week of July I was moved in with my mom.  Some birthday I had that year...  I came to visit Arcadia often because all I wanted to do was get away from the idea that my dad had broken my heart.  Junior year, I got cast in two shows, Godspell, which was the most amazing show and I miss it all the time and Anton which I was pulled from to be recast in Three Sisters.  Plus I worked on Hearsay so it was a busy year.  A VERY busy and nonstop year.  Especially when balencing 21 credits or whatever it was.  This summer I stayed at AU and worked as a shop girl and as a teaching asst. at Camp Shakespeare.  It's been a great summer pretty much.  But I haven't talked to the BR crew hardly at all.  I saw Matt for my birthday which is always exciting.  I have barely spoken to Kim and Lynda.  Not that I've tried, which is really a shame because I get too wrapped up in what I'm doing and I forget what it is to pick up the phone.  I read Kim's last journal entry from March, which is probably what inspired me to write all of this.  I came home for the weekend after dropping out of a terribly scripted show I was working on.  Scott wanted to get together so I met him at Applebees and we had some drinks at the bar.  It was such a surreal experience.  So much has changed, and I don't mean just the fact that Scott is 80 pounds thinner and I'm 30 pounds heavier.  It was just strange talking to him.  Like we had disconnected or something.  By the end of the night it was okay and we were laughing and joking, but for a good hour it felt like we both didn't want to be there...or something to that affect.  I finally called Kim.  I wanted her to meet us at applebees but I didn't know she was in the Dominican.  She came back today I think.  I'll try her again tomorrow.  I miss her tons. 

So that brings me to now.  Tomorrow's my dad's 59th birthday.  I'm 21.  I'm going in to my senior year at college as an Acting major.  After I graduate...I haven't the slightest where life is going to take me.  That's pretty terrifying... Am I going to California, staying in Philly, or maybe up to NY?  Am I going to make it?  Am I going to get to do what I want to?  I suppose this is a good way to end my Xanga life.  I leave it here just in case I get the impulse to write...but I think I've finally given up my online journal.  It's sort of like the way I've given up most of Bridgewater.  Although I will say, no one can ever replace my BR crew, because I still love them and hope I get to see them soon...

...it's so interesting how much life can change in such a short amount of time. 

To anyone who still reads these things...
Yours Always,

~Amanda~

It's Been A While

Wow...I haven't written in a while.  I guess I've just been busy.

I've been at school working and taking class.  I just finished my first class and start my next one next week.  Art History was really great and I learned a shit load.  Now I move in to Astronomy which should be a pretty cool science to learn about! 

I've been going to the gym everyday trying to get back on track.  I can't write long, I have to go meet some friends.  But things have been REALLY exciting.  I'll update more later!

xoxo

~Amanda~

Sit Back and Unwind

Well, I think this is the longest I've gone without updating!  It's been over a month!  I guess things have been really busy!

So it's summer time...a time to enjoy the sun, go to the pool, walk on the beach and play board walk games while getting wasted with your friends, right?  Wrong.  I start class on Monday.  lol.  It'll be cool though.  A lot of my good friends will be on campus or by campus this summer!  I'm really happy about that!  Plus Camp Shakes will be loads of fun!

Lydia and Marc are staying with me for a couple days.  Julie and I went shopping today and then watched 28 days later!  It was great of course.  Tomorrow I'm going on a fun trip with Lyds and Marc after graduation so I'm really excited about that. 

Other than those couple things, not much has been up.  I got to stop home for a couple days and visit my mom and dad.  Plus I got to see Kim and Lynda.  I would have liked to spend more time with them, but everyone's been so busy.  I guess that's life...  At least I got to see them for a little while!! 

Everyone come visit me this summer!  I don't know what apartment I'll be in, but when I find out I'll let everyone know!

XOXOXOXO

~Amanda~

Thy Duty Winged Flame of Spring...

Wow, I haven't updated in a while...So here it goes...

The high school show for Hearsay got cancelled so I won't get to perform after all, but at least I got to rehearse a little, which was fun.  The show is sooooooo amazing!!!! It's a world premire too so everyone should come see it!  It's this weekend and next weekend.  Let me know if you want to see it! 

Good news keeps rolling in!  I got selected to perform in the Improv show! I'm not sure how, but sure enough I did it!  I'm on Marc's team and it's really exciting!  It's me, Marc, Nickki and Matt vs. Maren, Jameson, Ernie and Sara!  Should be an interesting night!  It's May 2nd in the Chat!  The big big news is that I got the job at Camp Shakespeare!!! I'm sooooooo excited about it.  A lot of people wanted the job and sooooo many people applied, but I lucked out and got one of two spots!  Marc got the other one!! Kat and Delante are returning for their second summer as well!  It's going to be a lot of fun and I'm glad I made the choice to stay at school this summer!  Hopefully I'll never have to lifeguard again...

Housing finally worked out.  We took Alicia's number since she's moving off campus and she had a higher number than us.  We got a 2 bedroom apartment that can actually be 3 bedrooms and I'll have my own room!  Thank God!!!!  I really need it.  Not that I don't love living with people, I just don't like sharing a room.  I feel like I have no privacy!  It drives me insane. 

Everyone is sick.  I'm trying really hard to avoid getting it.  Studio Sketch has a show coming up in a couple weeks so I don't want to be lacking in voice for the show.  I'm directing 2 numbers and I'm in 5.  I'm featured in 2 1/2 (the 1/2 is a quartet) of the 5!  It's going to be a really fun show this semester so I'm excited about it.  Mom and Dad are both sick as well, but it seems like they're getting better. 

Saturday I'm heading home to see my high school's musical!  Matt talked me in to it.  Plus they're putting together this whole picture thing.  It's going to be cute!  Doug's the lead and I haven't seen him or talked to him in over a year so it'll be nice to drop in and say hi! 

Other then that, things have really be on the upswing.  It's about time.  I was getting sick of feeling like shit.

~Amanda~